SUCCESS

I just finished a meeting and didn't indulge in any of the treats, even though I was SUPER hungry and was sitting with them in front of me! I'm really proud of myself. I kept saying "you'll be happy when you don't eat that and you lose the weight" to myself of course! I came back to my seat and had my kashi granola bar that was waiting for me!

I'm really hoping for a big loss on Saturday to kick off my x-weighted challenge journey.

I'm also nursing an injury in my knee, so I have to focus more on food as I can't be as hardcore at the gym that I want to! I hurt my knee at the challenge hitting it on the hardwood floor during the fit test, bruising it and then on Sunday I was getting my 10 lb weights out of the cupboard and it clipped the 5lb weight and fell on the very same knee, so I have a big goose egg and swollen knee, it doesn't help that this all happened on the knee that has torn ligaments previously in it! grrrr, I just want to go to the gym and my zumba class :(

Stay strong today everyone and don't give into temptation! It's worth it for how I feel right now!! xo

X- WEIGHTED

I have signed up for the x-weighted challenge. It seems like a popular thing to do in blog land. I lovvve x-weighted (not feeling this season though). I want to win the weekend with Paul and have him kick my butt!! I went down to T.O on Saturday to do my wi, measurements and fit test. The fit test was soooo hard, I thought it was going to be a lot easier than it was, lay down/stand ups are hard when you're so overweight. So I have to lose 69lbs in 6months to qualify to be entered! AH! Thats
3lbs a week, which is quite a lofty goal! Luckily my boy joined up too and we're going to support each other! We did a huge healthy grocery shop today and had a delicous healthy dinner of chicken, roasted potatoes and spinach salad! I need to start taking pictures of my food for my blog!

My x-weighted goal is to run a 5k , I want to do mini fitness goals along the way, some things I'm interested in are indoor rock climbing and kick boxing/karate!

My January goal is to just get my schedule with the gym in check and food in check to prepare myself for a crazy journey of losing 69lbs in 6months (eeeeeek). It's not impossible righhhhhttttt?

Food for thought

I think about food, a lot (am I alone on this one??) It has been my comfort for the last 25 years and I'm trying to correct this. I started seriously comfort eating after my mom passed away, I was only 16, so after almost a decade of abusing my body and my ups and downs with my weight, I think it's about time I deal with it! I started going to grief counselling, I tried it when I was younger, but the therapist was very sterile and very pro-medication, but this one I have now 10 years later is really helping me. Imagine that if I had of met her 10 years ago instead of being turned off therapy by the other woman and doing for myself now what I should have been doing then ... TAKING CARE OF MYSELF.

Anyways yesteday was a pretty solid day. I ate well (minus a dove chocolate bar) I read on Jess (byebyelovehandles) blog that she enjoyed dove chocolate instead of granola bars because they are less processed etc.. so I decided to give it a whirl, I love chocolate, but at this time I cannot do that as I seem to have no self control with chocolate and/or my ravenous appetite as I am now counting my calories and sticking to a 'budget'.

I did however make it to 1 hour of Zumbbbaaaa. I love Zumba, it's a great work out, I burn 500+ calories and have fun doing it, some of it is hard, but overall I loved it. I could really feel myself letting go last night and it was an amazing feeling.

I like working out, there I said it. I've been in denial about it the past couple of months, but I do I like working out. I like how I feel, how I look and I like feeling like a warrior after a really brutal workout. MY weight loss is truly 90% mental and 10% physical.

xo

Back to blogging

I really feel renewed with this new year, I feel like I have a fresh start! I am very happily saying GOODBYE to 2009! I will be back to blogging, clean eating and excercising!

I am excited for 2010, I am signing up for the x-weighted challenge this weekend, I am physically going down to Toronto and doing the fit test and stuff, I am very excited. I love X-Weighted and Paul Plakas, well I have a love hate relationship with Paul LOL. However the boy and I are going down and are serious about weight loss in 2010. We have put a picture of the "plak man" as we call him on our fridge to remind us to make good choices, WWPD? haha.

I started up personal training once every 2 weeks with my old personal trainer Jenny, she helped me get all the weight off last time, so I figure now that I've let it all creep back on, I need her help again. Jenny is great for listening and getting me focused and let's not forget kicking my ass!!

I'm really excited about these new oppurtunities and for 2010 in general. The boy and I are going on holidays to Cuba I believe at the end of March, so I would like to lose about 30 or so pounds by then. It's going to be a struggle, but I would like to lose 60 for the x-weighted challenge. I want to go to Canmore and get my ass kicked by the plak man, that would just be amazing. (note: I will get to go, when I win!!!)

Fit Day and working out!

Today after my calorie journal got ruined in my lunch bag, my soup leaked grrrrr. I remembered the website I used when I started my weight loss journey (first round of losing) way back when! www.fitday.com, it has a lot of info for cal balance etc.. I found it really helpful back then and I'm finding it really helpful today. I got right into it and took my measurements and everything today.

I am super focused this week... my work out sched looked a little something like this...

Mon 5am - BL bootcamp - 20mins, bike 20 mins, yoga 20min, zumba 1 hr after work
Tues - Bike 30 mins, yoga 25 mins, tues night bike 30mins
Wed - BL bootcamp - 20 mins, bike 20mins, yoga 20mins, dance class 1hr after work
Thurs - Bike 45 mins, DDR 10mins, walk at lunch

I'm super proud of this accomplishment, I am feeling strong and focused and am happy I have a weight loss goal (239lbs by xmas) and I want to think of a fitness goal and then after xmas reset my goal, I would like to be under 200 for my bday in march..

xo

WI !

I took a bit of a hiatus from blogland. I just needed to get my ducks in a row again. My food hasn't been terrible, but not 100 % either. I did however starting last week get back to working out 4 times in a week, so I'm proud of that.

I did "zumbathon" it was basically zumba for as long as you could and your money was donated to United Way, it was such fun! I could have danced all night, but my friend I was with had to leave.

I went to niagara falls on the weekend for my 2 year anniversary with bf, it was wonderful, a few bad food choices, but with all the walking and then we swam laps in the hotel pool both days, it all evened out.

I weighed in and was down 2lbs this morning, it was on the BL wii game I WI and I was still below the yellow line, it needs to be more realistic that we're not actually on the show! Losing 0.79% in one week for a normal situation is pretty darn good!

WI was followed by workout! I did the BL bootcamp DVD (I quite like this and recommend it) then 20 mins on my stationary bike and the BL yoga for weight loss DVD. I also enjoyed this and took a tip from Angela over at Oh she glows and used my little heater to make it "hot yoga"

I'm also going to Zumba tonight, double work out days! I lovvvvve that I'm FINALLY feeling better and can work out etc...

I also have a Christmas goal to be 239, it can and will be done!!! I need to keep focused!!

Eating for a purpose...

My whole life as far as I can remember eating wasn't for the purpose of being full or getting my proper nutrtion in, it was for entertainment, comfort or reasons other that just being "hungry".

This past week and a half I busted out my BL calorie counting journal and started tracking, something I haven't done in a long time. I had a short stint on spark people or did it on here, but theres something about having a small journal in your purse that you can write it down as you're eating it. Anyways, I have cut my calories to about 1500 a day and I've been HUNGRY. So now I am trying to find ways to get the most bang for my caloric buck. I've encorporated lots more fruits, veggies, fibres and proteins... simple right? I just find that now that I'm tracking and not only tracking but looking over the past week it has made me a lot more accountable. Now I (try) to eat atleast 4 servings of fruits/vegs etc..

Now I eat every couple hours and try to stay full with nutrient good for you foods! Tracking works!

In other news I think I mentioned I bought the BL WII game last post.. I really like it! It's quite good, the challenges are a lot of fun and the WI is making me think about what I put in my mouth! I fell below the yellow line last week (ha) luckily I didnt' get eliminated (ha ha), I don't know how that would work... am I not allowed to play my wii game anymore?? BL is on tonight, although this is def not one of my fav seasons of people. I do like Rudy and a couple other people though, but I'm not a fan of Shay or Tracey... thoughts?