Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Frusteration and Yoga

Hi all! I'm so glad it's hump day today! I stayed home today because I was up half the night not feeling well. I had my gallbladder removed back in September and have been having some tummy troubles again.

Have any of you guys had your gallbladder out and troubles afterwards? I've really been watching what I'm eating, so I'm at a loss!

In the afternoon I was feeling okay, so I did the Biggest Loser weight loss yoga with the heater on, it was quite nice, I felt really relaxed. It's a really good Yoga DVD, if you're looking for something to do at home!

I'm debating going to a Naturopath too, I wonder if they can help me, hmmmmm

Monday, January 25, 2010

X-Weighted challenge!

I made myself get up this morning to go to the gym. I'm glad that I did and feel great that the gym is over with! I went to a new class that I didn't know much about, it turned out to be a step class. I usually don't like step classes, I'm not "step coordinated" but this one was good, it was intense and we had weights and bands and I quite liked it! It kicked my butt too!

My plan this week is to do AT LEAST 3 days at the gym, I went to Zumba yesterday and "Innovative Interval today" , so the week has started off well!

Now I'm at work, eating a sandwich and trying to think of something for dinner that involves chicken.. any ideas?

On a bad note, I gained 1lb this week and I was super dissapointed, I've been tracking and working out, so what gives? I was really down about it, but now I realize that I can't allow the scale to own me and just keep trying my best...

The x-weighted challenge is telling me I'm not on track. It wants me to lose 2.8lbs/ week, I've lost 2.5 lbs per week (with my big loss last week), so now to get back on track, I need to lose over 3lbs this week! Heres to a big loss again!

I kinda feel like the x-weighted challenge doesn't reflect the x-weighted show weights, paul usually says 2lb/week not 3, I think almost 70lbs in 6 months is quite excessive, but I'm hoping I can pull it out of my hat!

How are you guys feeling about the weight you have to lose on the challenge?

Thursday, January 21, 2010

My Mother's Birthday

My Mother's birthday is today, she would have been 53, I sadly lost my mother when she was at the young age of 43. I have been trying a lot lately to 'celebrate her life' instead of 'mourning her death' and although I have many happy memories of my mom. It's still hard on days like today when I wish she was here and I was spoiling her with presents and celebrating her day!

I'm going to stay on track today and not eat my feelings because that's what I've been doing for a long time.

I'm going to try and stay proactive and positive and thankful for everything that is in my life!

Remember to not take anyone or anything for granted and tell the people you love that you love them!


Wednesday, January 20, 2010

X-weighted, the Canadian biggest loser?

I love the biggest loser, but I can't seem to get into this season! I felt like turning it off last night, the whole thing with the green team was lammmme! I would give anything to be on the biggest loser, but unfortunatly it doesn't come to Canada! I am in the next best thing, x-weighted the challenge. The challenge is going pretty well so far, I'm hoping I can keep this pace up for the next 25 or so weeks. Sometimes it gets to me and is a bit daunting that I need to lose 69lbs just to be qualified, not even to win. I mean, I know I'm doing this to get healthy/fit etc.. but I really want to go see the Plak man!

I have been working out a lot this week and I forgot how tiring doing a lot of heavy weights was! My muscles are soooo tired!

I made the most amazing dinner tonight (I should have taken pictures) I always forget! I need to get into the habit I guess! I made a casserole! It had egg noodles, cut up chicken breast, cut up asparagus, mushrooms and cream of asparagus soup, mix all together in a casserole dish and cook for about 50 mins! mm mm

My food has been pretty good this week. I realized that I can't be trusted with Chocolate, I thought I was ready to portion out the delicous dove chocolate until a wave of hunger came over me in the afternoon, bored at me desk and I devoured the rest of the bar = GIANT FAIL. I am trying to figure out a balance, it's hard sometimes though. I feel like sometimes it's either I have to be perfect or not do it at all!

How do you all find balance? xo

PS I'm so excited I now have 20 followers!

Saturday, January 16, 2010

Weigh in!

I weighed in this morning for my x-weighted challenge and I lost 5.8lbs! I am very very happy with this! I now have 63.2lbs left, which is still a little daunting, but I think I can do it! I also passed my exam I wrote in December! Very good weekend so far!! I saw sherlock holmes today, it was pretty good, but slow at parts, I think they could have cut 20mins out! It's saturday and I'm being a little laxed with food, but still aware! Have a great weekend everyone!!

Friday, January 15, 2010


Overcoming food addiction is such a hard thing! I am super frusterated today! I have not overate yet though, even though I want to! I keep telling myself I want to lose weight, I don't want food! It's so tough though! How do all of you get through it?

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Tuesday, January 12, 2010


I just finished a meeting and didn't indulge in any of the treats, even though I was SUPER hungry and was sitting with them in front of me! I'm really proud of myself. I kept saying "you'll be happy when you don't eat that and you lose the weight" to myself of course! I came back to my seat and had my kashi granola bar that was waiting for me!

I'm really hoping for a big loss on Saturday to kick off my x-weighted challenge journey.

I'm also nursing an injury in my knee, so I have to focus more on food as I can't be as hardcore at the gym that I want to! I hurt my knee at the challenge hitting it on the hardwood floor during the fit test, bruising it and then on Sunday I was getting my 10 lb weights out of the cupboard and it clipped the 5lb weight and fell on the very same knee, so I have a big goose egg and swollen knee, it doesn't help that this all happened on the knee that has torn ligaments previously in it! grrrr, I just want to go to the gym and my zumba class :(

Stay strong today everyone and don't give into temptation! It's worth it for how I feel right now!! xo

Sunday, January 10, 2010


I have signed up for the x-weighted challenge. It seems like a popular thing to do in blog land. I lovvve x-weighted (not feeling this season though). I want to win the weekend with Paul and have him kick my butt!! I went down to T.O on Saturday to do my wi, measurements and fit test. The fit test was soooo hard, I thought it was going to be a lot easier than it was, lay down/stand ups are hard when you're so overweight. So I have to lose 69lbs in 6months to qualify to be entered! AH! Thats
3lbs a week, which is quite a lofty goal! Luckily my boy joined up too and we're going to support each other! We did a huge healthy grocery shop today and had a delicous healthy dinner of chicken, roasted potatoes and spinach salad! I need to start taking pictures of my food for my blog!

My x-weighted goal is to run a 5k , I want to do mini fitness goals along the way, some things I'm interested in are indoor rock climbing and kick boxing/karate!

My January goal is to just get my schedule with the gym in check and food in check to prepare myself for a crazy journey of losing 69lbs in 6months (eeeeeek). It's not impossible righhhhhttttt?

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Food for thought

I think about food, a lot (am I alone on this one??) It has been my comfort for the last 25 years and I'm trying to correct this. I started seriously comfort eating after my mom passed away, I was only 16, so after almost a decade of abusing my body and my ups and downs with my weight, I think it's about time I deal with it! I started going to grief counselling, I tried it when I was younger, but the therapist was very sterile and very pro-medication, but this one I have now 10 years later is really helping me. Imagine that if I had of met her 10 years ago instead of being turned off therapy by the other woman and doing for myself now what I should have been doing then ... TAKING CARE OF MYSELF.

Anyways yesteday was a pretty solid day. I ate well (minus a dove chocolate bar) I read on Jess (byebyelovehandles) blog that she enjoyed dove chocolate instead of granola bars because they are less processed etc.. so I decided to give it a whirl, I love chocolate, but at this time I cannot do that as I seem to have no self control with chocolate and/or my ravenous appetite as I am now counting my calories and sticking to a 'budget'.

I did however make it to 1 hour of Zumbbbaaaa. I love Zumba, it's a great work out, I burn 500+ calories and have fun doing it, some of it is hard, but overall I loved it. I could really feel myself letting go last night and it was an amazing feeling.

I like working out, there I said it. I've been in denial about it the past couple of months, but I do I like working out. I like how I feel, how I look and I like feeling like a warrior after a really brutal workout. MY weight loss is truly 90% mental and 10% physical.


Monday, January 4, 2010

Back to blogging

I really feel renewed with this new year, I feel like I have a fresh start! I am very happily saying GOODBYE to 2009! I will be back to blogging, clean eating and excercising!

I am excited for 2010, I am signing up for the x-weighted challenge this weekend, I am physically going down to Toronto and doing the fit test and stuff, I am very excited. I love X-Weighted and Paul Plakas, well I have a love hate relationship with Paul LOL. However the boy and I are going down and are serious about weight loss in 2010. We have put a picture of the "plak man" as we call him on our fridge to remind us to make good choices, WWPD? haha.

I started up personal training once every 2 weeks with my old personal trainer Jenny, she helped me get all the weight off last time, so I figure now that I've let it all creep back on, I need her help again. Jenny is great for listening and getting me focused and let's not forget kicking my ass!!

I'm really excited about these new oppurtunities and for 2010 in general. The boy and I are going on holidays to Cuba I believe at the end of March, so I would like to lose about 30 or so pounds by then. It's going to be a struggle, but I would like to lose 60 for the x-weighted challenge. I want to go to Canmore and get my ass kicked by the plak man, that would just be amazing. (note: I will get to go, when I win!!!)